On Tuesday 18th of April, I will be going into the 王室の Brompton Hospital here in London for the first of two 操作／手術s to 除去する my 肺 metastases. There are five lumps in my left 肺, which will be done first, and two in my 権利. The largest is about the size of a 10p piece (a ４半期/4分の1, for Americans). I will be in hospital for up to ten days, and so will be unavailable to answer email during that time. The second 操作／手術 is six weeks after. Until then, I am on vacation and also unable to answer email.
Recently, an American Christian author called John Piper also underwent 外科 for 癌 – his was of the prostate. On the eve of his 操作／手術, he sent 一連の会議、交渉／完成する an excellent piece する権利を与えるd “Don’t Waste Your 癌“. All of it is 価値（がある） reading, but the first point he made struck me 特に. He said:
You will waste your 癌 if you do not believe it is designed for you by God.
It will not do to say that God only uses our 癌 but does not design it. What God 許すs, he 許すs for a 推論する／理由. And that 推論する／理由 is his design. If God 予知するs molecular 開発s becoming 癌, he can stop it or not. If he does not, he has a 目的. Since he is infinitely wise, it is 権利 to call this 目的 a design. Satan is real and 原因（となる）s many 楽しみs and 苦痛s. But he is not ultimate. So when he strikes 職業 with boils (職業 2:7), 職業 せいにするs it 最終的に to God (2:10) and the 奮起させるd writer agrees: “They . . . 慰安d him for all the evil that the Lord had brought upon him” (職業 42:11). If you don’t believe your 癌 is designed for you by God, you will waste it.
It seems 完全に perverse to consider 癌 as a blessing from God, but the more I think about it, the more I realise he’s 権利. God does bless me, and also other people, through my illness.
For example, one major thing it has done is that it has given me a closer, more real and more 確かな hope of heaven. The 可能性 that in ten years one might be dead concentrates the mind wonderfully – both on not wasting a minute of any day, but also on looking 今後 to the wonderful eternity that を待つs. This is where, as I wrote on a friend’s 塀で囲む recently,
“He will wipe every 涙／ほころび from their 注目する，もくろむs. There will be no more death or 嘆く／悼むing or crying or 苦痛, for the old order of things has passed away.” (発覚 21:4)
Having a 詐欺師 and firmer 見通し of the 反対する of that 確かな hope is the first large way that God has blessed me through 癌.
Secondly, as my illness is 扱う／治療するd by 外科 rather than 無線で通信する or chemotherapy, it leaves me 解放する／自由な most of the time to 追求する a high-energy don’t-waste-a-minute lifestyle, but the need to 回復する from the 操作／手術s also 軍隊s me to stop every so often and relax – something I probably wouldn’t do enough of if left to myself. I know that, over the past few 極端に busy weeks, I have been looking 今後 to taking a breather and spending some time in bed.
Lastly, the scars the 操作／手術s have left me with have been the 誘発する／引き起こす for countless 広大な／多数の／重要な conversations where I am able to 証言する to the grace and 親切 of God in my life, and encourage other people to turn from their 反乱 and experience that grace for themselves.
So, perhaps incredibly to some, I have come to believe that my 癌 was designed 特に for me by God, and to thank him for it.
Comments on this blog have been 無能にするd while I am away 予定 to spam, which is incredibly 失望させるing because I really want to hear what people think about this. Please email me at the usual 演説（する）／住所, and 許す me if I don’t reply for a while.
I was Gerv’s boss at his 非，不，無-Mozilla 職業. His 決定／判定勝ち（する） to 再編成する his life not to waste a moment was part of what 奮起させるd me to leave the 法人組織の／企業の world and start my own ソフトウェア 商売／仕事.
So, I agree with him that the 影響s of his 癌 have been wide-reaching.
hi, i got to know about your blog from a friend’s RSS 料金d. while i do agree with the fact that God can use 癌, i 本気で 疑問 that He designs it. 癌, as far as i can tell, is a 製品 of the 落ちる – same as sin, death, sickness and all other manifestations of the devil. man sold out to the devil and became his son and was then する権利を与えるd to have manifestations of his father – the devil.
God can use 癌 to steer our lives にもかかわらず the fact that the devil ーするつもりであるs to kill us with it, but 受託するing that God authors it – i don’t agree with that. rather, i’d say His 広大な／多数の／重要な 目的 is not 妨害するd by it. He can 遂行する His good work にもかかわらず it.
The difficulty with this 見解（をとる） is that it means that there are some parts of 創造 which God did not create or design, and it means there are some parts of the world over which he does not have total 支配（する）／統制する. I don’t think the Bible teaches either of these things.
And the 調書をとる／予約する of 職業 明確に shows us that God has 力／強力にする over the devil. The devil cannot touch 職業 until God gives him 許可. What you are 示唆するing is の近くに to a “God vs. The Devil” fight – a form of dualism.
I have to say that I am not a 広大な／多数の／重要な beliver in the 肯定的な factors of 癌.
4-and-a-bit years ago my girlfriend developed breast 癌. She was 公正に／かなり high energy then, and still is. We are getting married in the next month.
She has been through 外科, chemo, 無線で通信する and is still on さまざまな 医薬 to subvert her hormones. She goes to 正規の／正選手 check ups (which I also …に出席する for the most part – if she is told she has mets, I would rather be there with her).
She is also a GP, and every week, gets to tell a few poor souls they too have breast 癌 and will be entering the 癌 治療 system. Of course, every week, she gets to tell people they are going to die. 癌 is not a 広大な／多数の／重要な way to die, and some leave behind young children. Not 広大な／多数の／重要な if they are 選び出す／独身 parents. My girlfriend’s life is not 平易な. There is no escape from the reality of 癌. It knocks on her door every day.
There are many 癌s which don’t 供給する people with much life to be active in. A lot are discovered late, when people have only months to live. A friend died recently within weeks of discovering 癌. Another friends mother within a couple of months. The plum was a couple where the father was given a year to live and then the mother was killed leaving 4 kids to be fostered.
I can subscribe to your 見解（をとる） of 存在 効果的な in life (although many people manage this without 癌), but that is it.
Finally, get 井戸／弁護士席 and stay 井戸／弁護士席 !!!
I’m not surprised; if you are not a 信奉者 in the loving 主権，独立 of God, and the saving 力／強力にする of Jesus Christ, then there’s no 推論する／理由 you should be a 信奉者 in the 肯定的な factors of 癌.
If you believe this life is all there is, anything which 縮めるs it has no upside.
“Of course, every week, she gets to tell people they are going to die. 癌 is not a 広大な／多数の／重要な way to die, and some leave behind young children. Not 広大な／多数の／重要な if they are 選び出す／独身 parents. My girlfriend’s life is not 平易な. There is no escape from the reality of 癌. It knocks on her door every day.”
RNC, I think it is 正確な to say that Gerv is not （人命などを）奪う，主張するing that 癌 is, of itself, a 肯定的な 改良 of life. if so, he wouldn’t be 捜し出すing to 敗北・負かす it 肉体的に. However, the question one needs to know when one 直面するs his own mortality is this: Does God care? and the second question is this, “If He does care, does He have any 力／強力にする to do anything about this?” As a Christian, Gerv can be 確信して that the answer to both questions is “Yes.”
That leads to another question, “If God cares and if He can do something about it, then why did I get 癌 in the first place?” Gerv 名簿（に載せる）／表（にあげる）d some of the 利益s to show God working even through this.
You girlfriend tells people that they are going to die. perhaps this comes as a shock, but if I were to tell the same thing to every person I met, I would be telling each one the truth. We don’t seem to notice that we are all going to die. If we die in 10 minutes or 10 years, the time is too short, and the result 必然的な. “There is no escaping the reality of death.”
How we die and when we die, are indeed in the 手渡すs of God. So, why can we not 受託する that if it happens when we are 80 as if we die of 癌 at 30? Is God good if we die at 80 but not if die at 30? In both 事例／患者s, the death was preventable by Him. However, He is in 支配（する）／統制する and knows that is best. Now to a more important question:
Why do we die at all? Answer: we are fallen. We are sinners. He Who is 宗教上の does not die. We do. A second important question: Can death be 敗北・負かすd? Answer: yes. Jesus did it, raising from the dead. Third question: Can I （警官の）巡回区域，受持ち区域 death? Answer: yes. Jesus’ 願望（する） is to be believed in, 信用d in, and relied on, for the forgivness of sins. He makes us 宗教上の through His sacrifice. Then, He finishes the 職業 by 保証（人）ing no experience of death to anyone who will believe. Yes, there is seperation from the 団体／死体, but no death: we go from life to life. And, one day, when He returns, we even get our 団体／死体s 支援する, except they are indestructable then, and 苦痛 解放する／自由な, and eternal.
God’s 計画（する）? to bless and not 悪口を言う／悪態. to save and not 非難する. Our problem is our wickedness. His 親切 is shown in the man, Jesus.
So, your girlfriend must say to some, “you are going to die.” I can say that to all. But, I can also say to all, “But that is only physical and 一時的な if you believe in Jesus. you don’t really have to die at all.”
Gerv’s words about 癌 show the greatness of God 適用するd to a real-life 悲劇. we live in a world that can’t 扱う 癌, and despairs in its 直面する, as your own words 確認する. Gerv has victory over 癌 and death 保証（人）d, and he can stand. if he must 苦しむ by God’s design with this 病気, it is not pleasant in itself. However, 最終的に, he will stand forever and that gives him the worldview he 陳列する，発揮するs here.
However i may hate to 収容する／認める it, as a 20 year old young man who just spent 20 years thinking he would live forever………As a christian I have to agree. God is the end all be all, perhaps if I were to live, my life would be worse after my death. I have to tell myself these things. Just like a parent knows whats best for their kids, God 存在 my father has to feel the same way. My physical death is 確かな , its nothing no human wants to experience but something that everyone WILL. I wish it weren’t so, on my days like today, in which i have a bitter 態度, I have to remind myself, it is Adam’s fault. Not Gods. Had Adam listened to what his father told him, Id never die. But, he didnt, and I will, for my transgressions. Its something that is 妨げるing my 約束 権利 now, and I can only hope with all that is in me that I will be able to 直面する it stronger and stronger each day that passes. I dont know, and no one else on earth knows why people have to 苦しむ with 癌, but I have to believe that God does. However much I may want to live forever, it just isnt meant to be, this world will one day not be the same place I wish to live in…….if anything itd be nice if time would stop, but it wont, the earth will keep spinning on its axis. Theres really no two ways of looking at it. Even from a 科学の point of 見解（をとる）, this world can literally only 持つ／拘留する so much life until theres not enough food, or the environement gives out. Math wise, it is a mathamatical certainly that i will die, for all who have （機の）カム before me have, and all that come after me will too, even the ones who havent been thought about yet. Thats why every day that goes by i can only hope to get closer to God, so that im worthy of his prescense. Keep up the 肯定的な 態度 Gerv, it may not be ur time after all, and do what ure doing, die for your 宗教, not your 病気. God bless you.
James,
your courage and 悲しみ and bewilderment all seem to mix together in your 地位，任命する. Thanks for 存在 so 攻撃を受けやすい. May I comment on a couple 事柄s that accentuate the hope we have?
Adam did 原因（となる） the 落ちる, but that in itself 作品 out for our best, not our detriment. The 落ちる led to God sending the 解答 to the 落ちる: Jesus. His death on the cross to 逆転する the 影響s of the 落ちる forever will, in the end, work for our better, not our worse.
As for life on this earth we love it because we know it. God, in the Bible, has 約束d a better life, but not floating in the sky somewhere. Jesus will raise His 信奉者s from the dead into indestructable 団体／死体s that cannot sin or be sick or know 苦痛. This will be better than a return to the Garden of Eden, for Adam before the 落ちる is inferior to Adam after the resurrection. The earth itself will have the 悪口を言う／悪態 除去するd, and we shall indeed be alive.
その上に, in Christ, there is not death. this is the 約束 of Jesus. All who believe in Him will live, even if we die. Your 良心 mind will know not even a moment of death.
Lastly, we yearn to live and dread death, even though all 団体／死体s die, because we were made for life. And, the God who made us for life, will give us life, forever.
Peace. Place your 信用 in the One of middle cross. He died for your sins. He rose for your 救済.
Your words seem to belong to a happy man. I’m touched with that strength that lives inside a 勇敢に立ち向かう man who you are.
this 地位，任命する reminds me of what in AA they call a “感謝する
アル中患者” When I first heard of this 概念 I thought it
was ridiculus… For me, 存在 an incest 生存者 (in our
会合s they tell us we’re not 犠牲者s we’re
生存者s…we were just kids, what could we do about it)
the 概念 of 存在 感謝する that I was 乱用d seemed
outrageous.
Then I listened to John Bradshaw’s “Spiritual Gifts of Your
Childhood 苦痛” and I understood.
I learned things like: “I 高く評価する／（相場などが）上がる you’re abandoning me
because it taught me to be self reliant” an NLP reframing
of the meaning we associate to the events that 形態／調整 our
lives.
I lost my Father to Prostate 癌 last year. My Dad and
grew closer, 近づく the end he worried if he left a healthy
遺産／遺物 for me, my brothers and our children… he did
I learned to 受託する him, warts and all
… much to my surprise, in doing this I learned to 受託する
myself warts and all. I’ve given this 遺産／遺物 概念 much,
much thought since then. I now live with my children in
their house. My youngest daughter, a 十代の少年少女, now has
尊敬（する）・点 for me and her 年上のs (never in a thousand years
did I hope to see that happen)
I fell off the sobriety wagon after 6 years clean, became a
割れ目 （麻薬）常用者, cleaned up, passed 非常に／多数の 麻薬 実験（する）s, got
my CDL license 支援する, 再開するd my Internet publishing of
self destructive 行為 websites.
I used to own victimbehavior.com
, now 位置を示すd at victimbehavior.blogspot.com
Bradshaw says:
“the best gift we can give our kids is for them to see us 傷をいやす／和解させる”
Dad 傷をいやす／和解させるd
I 傷をいやす／和解させるd
My kids are 感謝する
Did God know what he was doing?
I think so
David Bruce Jr.
http://www.software4yourmind.com
HI
I have read the first message with 利益／興味. As a born again Christian (my home church website is http://www.kingschurch.co.uk and please feel 解放する／自由な to visit and ask for 祈り) I don’t beleive God designs 癌, more that he 許すs it to happen with a greater 目的 in mind. This may sound a bit perdantic I know but my intermate experince with God and his 宗教上の spirit does not leave room for me to 受託する that there is anything but love in God’s character, and that while I agree he can use 癌 to concentrate our mind or alter 態度s or habits, I cannot say 手渡す on heart that the prelonged 苦しむing and pan that some people go through was something that Jesus would die for.
At the moment I know several people with 癌, one friend has 癌 in her thumb that can be 除去するd with 外科 (によれば the Doctors), one has 第２位 癌 which is treatable with chemo and my mum has medically incurable pancratic 癌 with 第２位s in her 肝臓 which is one of the worst 癌s with the least chance of 生き残り convensionally, but every day I pray to God for 傷をいやす／和解させるing and sustainance for her. While it is true only God knows what is in 蓄える／店, there are only two 選択s I see 存在 によれば his ultimate 計画（する）. The first is my mum’s 救済 and her gentlle and painless journy home and the second (my prefered 選択 given a chioce) is mums 救済 and 完全にする 回復. Anything inbetween is not 完全にする and therefore I cannot see how it can be in God’s 計画（する）.
To anyone 苦しむing from 癌 you have my 完全にする and unreserved sympothy, but a 思い出の品 to stay strong and the only diagnosis you should listen to is God’s 信用 him with your heart. In the more extreeme 事例／患者s you have to as it is all you have but even when it is medically treatable ask God for help and please don’t do it alone.He puts you in a family for a 推論する／理由, and if you aren’t part of a church please try and find one we don’t bit :) ). For thoses who’s 親族s and friends have 癌 like me, don’t be afraid to 自白する to God when you are feeling wobbly and your 約束 is not as it should be, 存在 told you could lose a loved one is painful and is a big thing to を取り引きする, don’t think that it is just your friend or 親族 who has to adjust you do too. However, do try and do you crying away from them and remember what ever you are going through, it must be 10 time worse for them, but that its is not to say you don’t have valid feelings that need to be talked through. In my experience my 独房 group (or whatever you smaller church group is called) has been invaluable, I know that without them and the wider support of my church I would have crubbled 完全に.
Finanlly its an old addage but one that is very apt for the friends and family of people with 癌. While you don’t want arguments they are a fact of life, unless you are really lucky, espcially within families (I hope so anyway, さもなければ I am in trouble when I get to Heaven) try to 避ける them where possible but where you cannot make them short, keep short accounts and make the appology quick in comming (even if like me you have to walk away for a short time first). I will 収容する／認める I have had a couple of aurguments with mum since she was 診断するd, where I walked away and took some time to 静める 負かす／撃墜する but the only person who was 傷つける was me as I lost precious time with my mum, something that becomes more obvious the more ill someone is. I know this seems silly to say and maybe others are better at controllling their feelings but for me when I am 強調する／ストレスd my temper is the first to go and it is all to 平易な to argue over silly things. I am learning to 支配（する）／統制する that part of me and God has always blessed me with the time to appologise but I am very aware this is through his grace and that I would never 許す myself if he didn’t. Also remeber that life does not stop as much as you would like it too (I know I am trying to 令状 up a PhD and 持つ／拘留する 負かす／撃墜する a part-time 職業) so don’t be ashamed to ask God for help there too. God knows we need 残り／休憩（する） and if your like me something like this really stops you from 存在 able to 計画（する） your time 効果的に. Ask God for help, make time for him, and look for his answers.
So I guess I am 説, wherever you are in you 旅行 with 癌, let God in. If you don’t know him yet and are just despirately looking for some help (which I 全く understand) please 信用 me God DOES love you, your 癌 IS NOT a 裁判／判断 and if you let him in he WILL help, even if he choses not to cure you. I know this last part may seem hard and I’m sorry if this is not what you 手配中の，お尋ね者 to hear but we all have a 始める，決める time on earth, all God asked is that we use it to get to know him and he will 受託する you with open 武器 whenever you let him in, even if it is at the last minute.
If you 港／避難所’t yet asked him in them I 勧める you to pray this 祈り with me
Lord God, I am sorry for the things that I have done in my life that have not been as you 手配中の，お尋ね者 and where I have got things wrong. I am so greatful that you sent your Son Jesus to die on a cross in my place so that I could pray this 祈り to you, to ask you to come into my life and guide me 今後. I lay 負かす／撃墜する my 計画（する）s for my life and 降伏する to you and ask for you for help and ask that you would send your 宗教上の Spirt to help he in my time of need. Lord Jesus I thank you so much for you sacrafice and for the gift of forgiveness for my sins that you 購入（する）d for me by your death, so now in return I give my life to you for you to 計画（する） and guide. 宗教上の spirit I welcome you. Amen.
This may seem a simple 祈り but I am yet to 会合，会う someone who has pray this or something like it and has said ‘ you know what I really wish I had waited a while’. Remeber as bad as this seems God DOES love you, ask for his help and 捜し出す his answer whether that is in a person, the bible, the church, or whatever. The only way he can be 限られた／立憲的な is by not looking for and 推定する／予想するing to be answered.
May God love you, help you, and bless you at this your time of need.
Spence
Jesus said his 信奉者s would 苦しむ; Paul said that Christians would 苦しむ. Christians 苦しむ every day in many parts of the world.
The danger of 説 that there is nothing but love in God’s character is that you 除去する his 裁判／判断, righteous 怒り／怒る at sin, jealousy for his Bride and so on. God’s personality has many parts.
While I pray that your Mum would be saved, it’s an inescapable fact that millions of people die unsaved every year. Is that not in God’s 計画（する）? Is God 減ずるd to just hoping for the best and seeing if it 作品 out? Surely we must 主張する that God is in 支配（する）／統制する of everything and therefore some people 存在 unsaved are part of his 計画（する）, just as 癌 is.
その上に, I don’t think this is a depressing thought, but a massively encouraging one. Which is more 慰安ing – a God who 単に wrings his 手渡すs impotently at 苦しむing, 説 “oh dear, this wasn’t in the 計画（する）”, or one who knows and directs all, and so if we 苦しむ we know it’s for our good and part of his 計画（する） to sanctify us?
Hi Gerv
I have read and thought about your comments. First of all thank you for 説 that you will pray for my mum. I am a little 混乱させるd about your comments, the bible やめる 明確に 明言する／公表するs that God is Love, and I 受託する that いつかs that means a rough ride and times of 苦しむing as God 形態／調整s us to his ultimate 計画（する）, but 説 that it is in God’s 計画（する） that people should die unsaved just doesn’t sit easily with me and leave me at peace as it should it is truely part of Gods 計画（する）. John 3.16 says ‘For God so loved the world he gave his only Son’ and also (sorry scripture 言及／関連 has escaped me) ‘My 計画（する）s are to 栄える you not to 害（を与える） you’. However, it is inescapable that we live in a fallen world where God 許すs 解放する／自由な will, and while I don’t believe it is in his 計画（する） to let people die unsaved, because he 許すs 解放する／自由な will, anyone who 服従させる／提出するs to God does so as a 解放する／自由な will offereing of sacrifice. Unfortunately, that means some people will choose not to 服従させる／提出する to God, so I guess your 権利 in that it is God’s will to give us a 解放する／自由な choice but to say it is his will is that some people should go unsaved doesn’t leave me at peace as it should. God is all the things that you 述べる but the one thing I have 戦う／戦い against in my own mind in 最近の months and still 辞退する to belive is that he is vindictive as I feel he would be to the people he decideds should go unsaved. It is our choice and one God paid the ultimate price to 安全な・保証する for us so that his rightous 怒り／怒る and vengence could be 満足させるd that 司法（官） had been done when he 容赦s each of us from sin.
Sickness is a consequence of the fallen world in which we live but God in his 知恵 will use that to his advantage to 形態／調整 and mold us to the people he wants to be, if we remain open to his 宗教上の spirit and guidence. He will 供給する all the help and grace we need but again a 長引かせるd agonising death is not something I can see God 許すing to happen unless the person still has 問題／発行するs to を取り引きする or is still in need of 救済, in which 事例／患者 I can see a loving God 長引かせるing life to give people time to choose to put things 権利 with him and others. This is not the 活動／戦闘s of a hash rathful God but one of a loving and caring God who wants the best for us even if that means dicipline いつかs. I do agree God has many 面 to his personallity (just as we do) but I hope that I have explained how he only ever uses them in a loving way to those who 受託する him.
I really hope that I have not upset you with this comment but I 手配中の，お尋ね者 to （疑いを）晴らす up a few things, although knowing me I probably misunderstood your comment and have just 再び述べるd what you were 説 in a different way.
Thank you again for your 祈りs for my mum, they are much appriciated and needed
Spence
But that would mean that Jesus and (probably) eleven of the twelve apostles “still had 問題／発行するs to を取り引きする or were still in need of 救済”. They all died 長引かせるd, agonising deaths. Yet they glorified God in doing so.
I think perhaps you are wrongly assuming that if Christians 苦しむ then God is 存在 厳しい or cruel, or if people die unsaved because God chooses that it be so then God is 存在 vindictive. I don’t believe either of these things are true. まず第一に／本来, I believe this because God is a God of 司法（官） and love. This means he cannot be 厳しい or cruel. Even if we cannot always see why we 苦しむ, we are called to believe that it is for our good or that of the kingdom – and so is not cruel. And because God always 裁判官s 正確に，正当に, he can 正確に 裁判官 that some shall not be saved, and not be vindictive.
The 代案／選択肢 is that God wants everyone to be saved but they are not – i.e. God is not 君主, he just has to hope for the best. That line of thought leads off 負かす／撃墜する some very worrying paths…
Why is this important? Because if you believe that God wants everyone to be saved, and then people you know are not, you will start to 疑問 God’s 主権，独立. And if you believe that God would not give anyone a 長引かせるd death unless they had “unfinished 商売／仕事”, then if a Christian you know has one, you will unnecessarily 疑問 their 救済.
She is only 6 years old what 肉親，親類d of 計画（する） is that??? 2 weeks ago they say 6 months or a year is all. No 治療 no hope! what 肉親，親類d of 計画（する） is that? Tell me I dont see how this will help anyone. WHAT KIND OF PLAN IS THAT! Its times like this you wonder is there a 計画（する） and what 肉親，親類d of GOD 計画（する）s that?
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I was mad when I wrote my 地位，任命する. I have seen lots of people come togrther for the family. She is just so young and its so sad. Please pray for her and her family. Her website is 名簿（に載せる）／表（にあげる）d above.
6 years old… 返答
Maybe you are what needs to happen in spreading the word???
I will pray for her, it will not be in vain.
I am a 37 white 女性（の） that 設立する out 2 days I have breast 癌 in both breasts. I feel that God has always been a part of my life. I was baptized at the age of 12. I feel that I was much closer to God before I 設立する out I was 診断する with 癌 than I was at the age of 12. God has a 計画（する） for everything that happens to you in your life it is our place not to 裁判官 his 計画（する）s , just try to live the way he wants you to. I have became really の近くに to God since my husband and I got 支援する together. I was living in sin without him in my life,ADULTERY. Since we have been together we have had our 上りの／困難な 戦う／戦いs but the 戦う／戦い of 癌 is the most 厳しい 戦う／戦い. We have 打ち勝つ drugabuse and I KNOW WITH GOD’S HELP WE WILL OVERCOME MY BREAST CANCER! I feel that my 職業 from GOD is to try and bring other’s to him 予定 to my 癌. That is my goal and my victory will be cancerfree one day. My friend doen’t understand my enthusasim from my 状況／情勢, but my strentgh is fromGOD!
I 設立する out I have 肺 癌, 1 tumor on my 権利 肺 and lumps in my 権利 and left 肺. God has been working with me really hard for the past 4 months. I now see what he was getting me ready for. He had me look at my life and was changing me for his 目的. When I got the news the day before thanksgiving 07 I felt such a peace with the news ( unlike anything I have ever experienced ) I gave myself to God at the foot of his cross that his will may be done with me. Sure you look at reality in a new way and see things through God’s 注目する，もくろむ for his 目的. I am thanking God for everything that happens to me. On my web 場所／位置 I have 名簿（に載せる）／表（にあげる）d things I am thankful for which helps me see what God has put in my life. My time may be short but I am living for God’s 目的. nedfoxartist.com
I 設立する out I have 肺 癌, 1 tumor on my 権利 肺 and lumps in my 権利 and left 肺. God has been working with me really hard for the past 4 months. I now see what he was getting me ready for. He had me look at my life and was changing me for his 目的. When I got the news the day before thanksgiving 07 I felt such a peace with the news ( unlike anything I have ever experienced ) I gave myself to God at the foot of his cross that his will may be done with me. Sure you look at reality in a new way and see things through God’s 注目する，もくろむ for his 目的. I am thanking God for everything that happens to me. On my web 場所／位置 I have 名簿（に載せる）／表（にあげる）d things I am thankful for which helps me see what God has put in my life. My time may be short but I am living for God’s 目的. nedfoxartist.com
My husband was 診断するd with Stomach 癌, last year November (2006), We believed God to 傷をいやす／和解させる him… we had never been closer and more in touch with God before… Unfortunately.. God’s 計画（する） was not to 傷をいやす／和解させる him, he passed away in April 07, at the age of 28…
I still 信用 God… as Romans 28:8 says.. He 作品 ALL things for the good of those who love him, who were called によれば his 目的….
I find it very difficult understanding God, but we are not suppose to I guess! God never lets you go!!!
I know my husband is marching around Heaven now.. as he was SO 十分な of life on this earth,.. I can imagine he is much more 十分な of live in Heaven..
Knowing God gives me hope I will see my husband again… On the other 味方する.. Imagine living without that hope???
I also know God took him for a 推論する／理由, still seeing the 推論する／理由s 広げる!!!
The doctor told me I had an 85% chance that the 5 高く弓形に打ち返すs and tumor were 癌. After the 実験（する）s of all 肉親，親類d the results （機の）カム 支援する 消極的な, no 癌 設立する.
However it could develop into 癌. I can only thank God for for this and I
waiting to see what his 目的 for me now is. My web 場所／位置 has a page called thoughts for the soul- what I thank God for. This is helping me を取り引きする everything and a little humor. my 場所／位置 is http://www.nedfoxartist.com.
Thank God for this 場所／位置 Amen Ned